I don't know how his Asperger's came to be. I think back to my family history. My mercury laden fillings in my mouth since I was 8 years old. My exposure to probably a bazillion and one VOC's, hydrofluorocarbons (Aquanet and I have a LONG history. I'm better now), asbestos (I went to schools that were probably infested with the stuff), lead paint (my house probably had it and I know I ate the lead paint off of those McDonald's glasses back in the 70's. Grimace DID NOT taste like grape.) thimerosal in vaccines that I was given and perhaps even Nathan was given. Bisphenol A. The list goes on. And then there is my family psychological history. My mother's battle with anxiety. My laundry list of anxiety related issues and quirky behavior. Nathan's father's OCD. It's a melange of things that may have caused it.
But, it doesn't matter HOW it happened. That I cannot change. And I do not want to alter or "cure" him. He's pretty awesome as he is, thank you. I just want to know why. I want to prevent it from happening in the future. Autism is something you live and deal with for the rest of your life. It's draining and exhausting. It can ruin marriages and relationships and make people completely destitute. The government also says that the lifetime cost of caring with someone with Autism (and I'm assuming it's low functioning Autism, the article only specifies a child born in 2000 and diagnosed in 2003) is 3.2 million dollars.
And nobody can tell us why. Nobody wants to take responsibility or blame. Why can't Autism have an Erin Brockovich like heroine come in and discover what the heck is going on? We deserve to know as do our children.